http://www.dailykos.com/storyonly/2007/5/28/12530/1525
http://theexcellentadventure.com/elementalmom/2007/05/29/thank-you-cindy-sheehan
I just can't believe it.
They've finally driven Cindy Sheehan to give up.
I'm unable to type much more than these links, but I think they speak for themselves. Sometimes I slip into blissful forgetfulness, with this paradise all around me, and then the background music screeches to a halt and something like this reminds me of the utter insanity that has taken hold of the land I live in.
What are we doing?
What am I doing about it?
Sadly, nothing more than crying behind my computer screen for today. Tomorrow, who knows...
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
do less, make more....do MORE!
this is what i want to do:
http://www.dooce.com/
a SAHM (short for Stay at Home Mom or a Shit Ass Ho Motherfucker), whose family of 3 is supported by the ads on her blog.
she just writes funny stuff and gets people to read it. that's about it.
do less work, make more money. then do so much more of what life is REALLY about.
ahhhhhh....nice vision!!!
http://www.dooce.com/
a SAHM (short for Stay at Home Mom or a Shit Ass Ho Motherfucker), whose family of 3 is supported by the ads on her blog.
she just writes funny stuff and gets people to read it. that's about it.
do less work, make more money. then do so much more of what life is REALLY about.
ahhhhhh....nice vision!!!
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Mega Update
Goodness, looks like I have not blogged in a while! So, the update in a nutshell:
• I closed down my design business of 6 years and returned to full time employment. I am proud to announce myself as a User Interface Designer for Citrix Online, maker of fine products such as Go To My PC and Go To Meeting, among other things. I design the software and research how to make it easier to use. It's a whole new direction for me career-wise and it's a lot of fun!
• Love life = well nothing really to report. Prior post didn't completely pan out, or is still a big question mark, so I've decided against posting on dating again until something like my 1 year anniversary with Mr or Ms Right...whattya think?
• Bad news = I had a car accident 2 days before Thanksgiving. I totalled my car and hit 2 other cars. I came out of it pretty lucky, as Sophia was not with me and my injuries, while pretty darn hard to deal with, were minor and recoverable. Injuries include heavy duty whiplash, bruised ribs, some bulging discs in my lumbar area, and some ligament & soft tissue damage which all adds up to a lot of pain and missed time on my new job, but it's getting better. The crappy part is that my used car obviously was in an accident prior to my purchasing it and the damage was covered up by the slimeball who sold it. There was no airbag, and the insurance adjuster found that the airbag light had been jimmy-rigged to be turned off, so that no one would know that the airbag was missing. Apparently they are very expensive to replace so some people don't. Losers. Anyway, this prior accident also comprised the seat belts, so mine flew off of me at impact. Which means at the time of the crash, I was unrestrained. I bounced around the front of the car, that's why my injuries are so tough. Likewise, the other seat belt which was engaged at the time, the one holding Sophia's empty car seat, also popped out on impact, and her carseat went plummeting upside down thru the car. So so so lucky she was not in it.
Someone said to me that I was really lucky to have found out about the unsafe state of my car in a relatively minor accident. I mean it totalled my car and caused about $4000 damage to the other cars, but what if I had been in a head on collision with a car without proper belts and airbag? Whew...I don't even want to think about it. I bought this car before the day of Carfax and the extensive information available online about used cars. Please take my experience to heart next time you're shopping for a used car and do the research!
• This has all got me thinking about durable power of attorney for healthcare decisions, a will, who I'd want to raise Sophia if anything happened to me, and all that jazz. More to post when I get to that stuff...as I am sure I will want to record what I find and how I make my decisions.
So that's the state of things here. I am slowly recuperating and getting some mobility back but am in constant pain. I just started physical therapy which is helping a great deal and I found a really amazing young new doctor, a mom of 2 kids under age 3, who is refreshing my few on medical professionals. That's cool. And I have a swank holiday party to go to next Friday, without a date. But I'm gonna dress up to the nines anyway just for the hell of it! Something tells me I'm past my days of caring about things like that and happy to just have fun. Probably will meet more of my new co-workers without a date anyway!
• I closed down my design business of 6 years and returned to full time employment. I am proud to announce myself as a User Interface Designer for Citrix Online, maker of fine products such as Go To My PC and Go To Meeting, among other things. I design the software and research how to make it easier to use. It's a whole new direction for me career-wise and it's a lot of fun!
• Love life = well nothing really to report. Prior post didn't completely pan out, or is still a big question mark, so I've decided against posting on dating again until something like my 1 year anniversary with Mr or Ms Right...whattya think?
• Bad news = I had a car accident 2 days before Thanksgiving. I totalled my car and hit 2 other cars. I came out of it pretty lucky, as Sophia was not with me and my injuries, while pretty darn hard to deal with, were minor and recoverable. Injuries include heavy duty whiplash, bruised ribs, some bulging discs in my lumbar area, and some ligament & soft tissue damage which all adds up to a lot of pain and missed time on my new job, but it's getting better. The crappy part is that my used car obviously was in an accident prior to my purchasing it and the damage was covered up by the slimeball who sold it. There was no airbag, and the insurance adjuster found that the airbag light had been jimmy-rigged to be turned off, so that no one would know that the airbag was missing. Apparently they are very expensive to replace so some people don't. Losers. Anyway, this prior accident also comprised the seat belts, so mine flew off of me at impact. Which means at the time of the crash, I was unrestrained. I bounced around the front of the car, that's why my injuries are so tough. Likewise, the other seat belt which was engaged at the time, the one holding Sophia's empty car seat, also popped out on impact, and her carseat went plummeting upside down thru the car. So so so lucky she was not in it.
Someone said to me that I was really lucky to have found out about the unsafe state of my car in a relatively minor accident. I mean it totalled my car and caused about $4000 damage to the other cars, but what if I had been in a head on collision with a car without proper belts and airbag? Whew...I don't even want to think about it. I bought this car before the day of Carfax and the extensive information available online about used cars. Please take my experience to heart next time you're shopping for a used car and do the research!
• This has all got me thinking about durable power of attorney for healthcare decisions, a will, who I'd want to raise Sophia if anything happened to me, and all that jazz. More to post when I get to that stuff...as I am sure I will want to record what I find and how I make my decisions.
So that's the state of things here. I am slowly recuperating and getting some mobility back but am in constant pain. I just started physical therapy which is helping a great deal and I found a really amazing young new doctor, a mom of 2 kids under age 3, who is refreshing my few on medical professionals. That's cool. And I have a swank holiday party to go to next Friday, without a date. But I'm gonna dress up to the nines anyway just for the hell of it! Something tells me I'm past my days of caring about things like that and happy to just have fun. Probably will meet more of my new co-workers without a date anyway!
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Better Late than Never: Mother's Day post
I just read the best mother f-ing blog post (pardon my pun) about the origins of Mother's Day...I will not say anymore more but to have you read this. It completely made my night...my completely exhausted mother-worn night. Read on...
http://womensspace.wordpress.com/2006/05/14/mothers-militant-mothers-day-as-resistance-2/
http://womensspace.wordpress.com/2006/05/14/mothers-militant-mothers-day-as-resistance-2/
Sunday, May 14, 2006
reflecting on a blog
happy mother's day everyone. we went to an amazing church service today, with urging to let go of any old crap you still think your mother owes you and move to the now, move to a place of love. it was much a bigger and better message than that, but this is the piece that stuck with me. it's true. the primary thing all mothers gave us, whether they were good, bad, indifferent or absent, they gave us life. what they did from there on varies with each of us, but one thing i think is true, is that our mothers did the best they could with what they had. not all of them had the best tools, some had too much of their own pain to see thru. some had misguided ideas of what was best or right. but what we decide to do with it from here, that part is up to us.
i started this post as a reminder to myself of my initial intent with this blog. i happened to go back to my first post tonight and saw that my intention was to use this to reflect on my day, my life with sophia, and to create a kind of gratitude journal for us to look back on. i strayed from that course a bit and this had started to become the chronicles of my move to portland and back.
so tonight, i reflect on a beautiful 24 past hours. first a babysitter and a night out for mama, perhaps only 4th or 5th time to do that in 3 years. went to a fundraising gala for local arts workspace, all dressed up and dancing under the stars. was taken cruising with 3 handsome men in a 20 foot 1960 cadillac, stopping along state street for tequilla shots...then back to the dance floor and 3 different propositions for a "ride home"...hah! what a night for a single mom, eh? i went home with known and beloved riccardo, father of my child, with whom i've been somewhat estranged for the last 2 weeks. we're finally navigating the tough choices of our relationship and finding our way. i've been trying to reclaim myself, my sexuality, and all things relating to riccardo. but last night, the magic was in the air, and perhaps something about others wanting me did something for him, who really knows, but a ride home turned into a powerful physical reconnection, then he left at 5 am to take his mom to vegas for a few days. not sure when we will see him again, we are working out at least 1 night a week visitation.
whoosh, got way off track there...just a little update, but back to reflecting...so fun night of drinking and dancing and a chance to step out in heels and an evening gown...all to the tune of flattering compliments from so many people i know and love. great music, full moon, and all the time, the lovely Pema had my sweetie pie out on a date of her own, dancing and drumming until a pretty darn late 11 pm for a 3 year old! Pems spent the night and she and Sophia made me a mother's day breakfast in bed! then we all went to the church service, saw so many more people i know and love. wild that i'd never even heard of that church and its less than a half a mile from my house. after sophia and i went to the library and had lunch out, then back home for a long nap. tonight i made sophia dinner in bed because she liked this concept so much!
overall a lovely mothers day. i have a deep gratitude for the messages coming my way about divine love. i have been searching for a spiritual path for some time. the crazy thing is that now it seems to be searching for me. i am deeply grateful for my biggest teacher, my sweet and beautiful sophia. i am at every moment simultaneously proud of her, in awe of her, in awe of me, and scared out of my gourd! i want so much to give her a golden childhood, and also see the effects that single motherhood has on that dream. i want so much better for her than what i am often able to provide. i guess every mother feels that way. i just pray a little, breathe a lot and keep on trying harder.
and i wonder how often my mother did the exact same thing.
i started this post as a reminder to myself of my initial intent with this blog. i happened to go back to my first post tonight and saw that my intention was to use this to reflect on my day, my life with sophia, and to create a kind of gratitude journal for us to look back on. i strayed from that course a bit and this had started to become the chronicles of my move to portland and back.
so tonight, i reflect on a beautiful 24 past hours. first a babysitter and a night out for mama, perhaps only 4th or 5th time to do that in 3 years. went to a fundraising gala for local arts workspace, all dressed up and dancing under the stars. was taken cruising with 3 handsome men in a 20 foot 1960 cadillac, stopping along state street for tequilla shots...then back to the dance floor and 3 different propositions for a "ride home"...hah! what a night for a single mom, eh? i went home with known and beloved riccardo, father of my child, with whom i've been somewhat estranged for the last 2 weeks. we're finally navigating the tough choices of our relationship and finding our way. i've been trying to reclaim myself, my sexuality, and all things relating to riccardo. but last night, the magic was in the air, and perhaps something about others wanting me did something for him, who really knows, but a ride home turned into a powerful physical reconnection, then he left at 5 am to take his mom to vegas for a few days. not sure when we will see him again, we are working out at least 1 night a week visitation.
whoosh, got way off track there...just a little update, but back to reflecting...so fun night of drinking and dancing and a chance to step out in heels and an evening gown...all to the tune of flattering compliments from so many people i know and love. great music, full moon, and all the time, the lovely Pema had my sweetie pie out on a date of her own, dancing and drumming until a pretty darn late 11 pm for a 3 year old! Pems spent the night and she and Sophia made me a mother's day breakfast in bed! then we all went to the church service, saw so many more people i know and love. wild that i'd never even heard of that church and its less than a half a mile from my house. after sophia and i went to the library and had lunch out, then back home for a long nap. tonight i made sophia dinner in bed because she liked this concept so much!
overall a lovely mothers day. i have a deep gratitude for the messages coming my way about divine love. i have been searching for a spiritual path for some time. the crazy thing is that now it seems to be searching for me. i am deeply grateful for my biggest teacher, my sweet and beautiful sophia. i am at every moment simultaneously proud of her, in awe of her, in awe of me, and scared out of my gourd! i want so much to give her a golden childhood, and also see the effects that single motherhood has on that dream. i want so much better for her than what i am often able to provide. i guess every mother feels that way. i just pray a little, breathe a lot and keep on trying harder.
and i wonder how often my mother did the exact same thing.
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